I can sum up everything about life in 3 words: It goes on

Crazy Tracy-

Haha just saw another crazy pic....better post it before I book in. Enjoy! heh=p

10:09 PM

Lesson From the Jungle-

While I was sitting in my friend's car looking out of the window today, I was pondering over things.

It reminded me of the most valuable lesson I learnt in Bru-nei.

I used to wait for someone to pull me up in the past, when I fall. But I've learn to stand up on my own even when u're yr lowest. When you are denied of every right and put to the lowest form. When you are helpless and no one gives you a hand. When you think there's no reason to even stand up. You still gotta stand up, because you're a survivor, you're not gonna end just there.

Each time I wear that badge I tell myself I'll never forget that lesson. The will power to survive. No matter wad terrible things I have to face.

I know I'll survive this one.

"what does not kill you will only make you stronger"

1:51 AM

Been Thinking About...

Had a super long weekend with nothing much to do. Sick and tired of trying to get my busy friends to go out, it feels like as though I owe them something have to dig it out of them.

Decided to go out alone. Went a place that I used to frequent very often as a primary/secondary school kid. Everything has changed. The shops are all different but the feeling remains the same. It reminded me of the past.

When I was very young I was a quiet kid living in my own world, with no one knocking on my door. No one knows the real me. Maybe it's more appropriate to say no one bothers.

My life became different when I met some good friends. They really cared. They shared their life with me and they allowed me to share mine with theirs. The colours in my life slowly unfolded.

Slowly it died down...bit by bit...Some became busy. Some who used to care didn't care already. Some forgotten, some faded away with time. Maybe I didn't realise, but I'm slowly sinking back into my own world again.

Is this growing up? or is this the typical life of a busy military guy? or maybe it's meant to be. I dunno. I ended up doing something which I always enjoyed but have not been doing for a long time. I took a long long bus ride home alone, sitting by the window.

Things That Piss Me Off-

The number 1 thing I cannot stand is when I see the people whom I love and care about destroy themselves. They break their promise to me, and they don't know how to take care of themselves. I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it .

Things That Warms My Heart-

I was still having thoughts of changing church just this week, when I suddenly realise that there are people who really have great potential. They really care and they are so willing and eager. I'm so touched that God actually planted such people in my church. I guess I'm gonna stay on and what plans He has for me.

8:15 PM